I guess that I've come to the conclusion that when it comes to my pregnancy I'm gunna hit every bump in the road. Today I failed my glucose test and now have to monitor my blood sugar levels starting Wednesday. I just have to realize that my body is normally complicated.... but jeez I need to give it a break seeing as how it is making our child. To be honest I'm surprised that with all of the bumps in this road I haven't totally lost it, but then moments like yesterday happen. I had to go be monitored for the contractions that I was having I was in tons of pain and just wanted give up, they did an ultrasound. I know that I could only see the top of his head but the doctor showed me what his brains looked like and I was about a second from crying. There in that moment I thought about all of the wonderful times that I am going to have watching him pretend that he is his dad and try to scare or being a smart ass.
He isn't even here yet and I can already close my eyes and see how wonderful my life is going to be with him as my son. I thought that the day I got married to my rock and my best friend was going to be the happiest, proudest moment of my life. well just in those few seconds he proved me wrong. I am realizing my strengths every day. He is proving even my own self doubt wrong. If he can do that just being in my tummy I can only imagine what life is gunna be like when he is born. I always thought that the day that "impending doom" came along I was going to be terrified. Now I'm already excited and can't wait to meet this little man that has made me more confident that I even knew that I could be.
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